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YES I THINK TOO MUCH!I DON HAV THE RIGHT TO BE A GUD FRENS!RIGHT?YES!I LIKE TO EMO!CALL U ALL OUT NOT TO C THE PRESENT!BUT IS C UR FACE!IZZIT WRONG?HURT?HOW HURT?SAD?HOW SAD?WAT U ALL REALLY WAN?WAT CAN I DO JUS CAN LET U ALL KIP RMB ME?RMB I M LA SERENE!WAT CAN I DO JUS CAN BE A GUD FREN FOR U ALL?I VY TIRED...I DON HAV ANY GUD O EVEN BEST FREN AWAYLS BE WIF ME!WHO?NO?NTG?SO I NID TO C U ALL..WAT IS FRENS?WAT IS BUDDIES?EXAMPLE1:still rmb last time v had a bbq at peisee house,oni meishu,christine,peisee o else sat at there bbq!others?watching tv!izzit like a frens gathering?
EXAMPLE2:michelle,hui,wen,cat,chinmin..are vy buddies...hw bout serene and christine?they still alive at BP!
EXAMPLE3:chinmin bday present..haizz...chinmin party...sigh
why should i say tis out?mayb u all think i wu liao..but i still care bout u all!WENDY!wen i noe u sad i call u asap!wen heard u knock a uncle car u noe wat is my reaction?HUI:u too..i miss you!MICHELLE:u NVR tel ur xin shi to me..is ok!haiz..others?sorry..i jus feel i vy kaypo,fan rite?wat can i do wen i nid u all?wen i nid frens?i don hav the chance?evytime i pretend vy strong!but no..i m weak!i really nid u all to help me forget william!!!!!tis few day,i kip think bout him!crying alone!but i nt dare to tel anyone!coz i wan pretend strong!i gt a lot of frenss but who r the one who really can i trust?no!frenss,mayb u all will angry wif me o don hiu me,but i feel i m alone! _serene_